Same with my relationship. I need to either make more of an effort, or he's going to break up with me. I already feel like he might. He already resents me.
But I don't know how to make him understand me when I don't understand myself, and if I don't understand something, I don't feel ready to put it on the line for judgement.
Yet I don't consciously try to understand it so that I can confidently explain it. Because I'm shy and selfish and secretly want to explain nothing.