2023-01-02 - a poem
2022-02-18 - 2022
2021-01-30 - void
2020-12-10 - Short update
2020-09-18 - Constant
2020-08-24 - All I could do was wait
2020-08-01 - Observe the Train
2020-07-14 - sad
2020-07-03 - Your government hates you
2019-11-30 - -
2019-07-28 - -
2019-04-22 - Crazy
2019-03-31 - Ache
2019-03-06 - Sleep for days
2019-02-20 - Not today
2019-02-11 - feel ok
2019-02-09 - The toe knows
2019-02-07 - Human trash fire
2019-01-29 - Hey, there's a name for it.
2018-12-24 - This universe is magnificent.
2018-06-09 - Nightmares and exhaustion
2018-05-14 - Balance
2018-05-11 - Masochist
2018-04-29 - "I find it interesting..."
2018-04-18 - Demands
2018-04-02 - Guilt
2018-03-15 - real animal blood in use
2018-02-12 - 122
2018-01-13 - It's definitely been a while
2016-12-17 - And I normally don't listen to it out of anger
2016-12-14 - Done.
2016-11-21 - gossip girls
2016-11-20 - You bitch
2016-10-11 - earth
2016-10-10 - Down
2016-09-05 - Yeah no.
2016-08-31 - with or without approval
2016-08-19 - Fuck.
2016-08-04 - I need a break
2016-07-28 - 1:05
2016-07-24 - Skills
2016-07-05 - Poison
2016-06-23 - Kcals
2016-06-19 - Fasting
2016-06-04 - Exhausted
2016-06-01 - Labels
2016-05-14 - -
2016-05-08 - Hate
2016-05-06 - So.
2016-04-17 - -
2016-03-14 - -
2016-02-16 - Sick.
2016-01-11 - Stuck
2016-01-03 - maybe.
2015-12-26 - Anxious
2015-12-02 - -
2015-11-29 - -
2015-11-27 - People are more trouble than they're worth.
2015-11-25 - Sigh.
2015-11-24 - Embarrassed
2015-11-16 - Introvert or fucked up?
2015-11-15 - Not vague at all
2015-10-27 - Day 1 of 3 of vacation
2015-09-05 - sdfsd
2015-08-30 - learning
2015-08-21 - Reasonable
2015-08-20 - regrets
2015-08-17 - Quarterly update
2015-05-05 - No clue.
2015-03-17 - Sad panda
2015-03-16 - Nevermind about the hatred for dating
2015-03-06 - Dating, working out, alcohol...
2015-02-28 - new job, RIP Mr. Spock
2015-02-27 - already done with it
2015-02-20 - job hunting and desperation
2015-02-15 - can't win them all
2015-02-11 - life and limb
2015-02-09 - I can never think of proper titles
2015-02-04 - truths
2015-02-03 - -
2015-01-30 - week 2 back in portland
2015-01-13 - when I start thinking about relationships
2015-01-08 - Two days left
2014-12-25 - Xmas 2014
2014-12-12 - 0
2014-12-10 - 2
2014-12-08 - 4
2014-12-07 - 5
2014-12-05 - 7
2014-11-30 - 12
2014-11-28 - 14
2014-11-27 - 15
2014-11-21 - 21
2014-11-21 - 21
2014-11-21 - 21
2014-11-12 - 30
2014-11-10 - 32
2014-11-03 - 39
2014-11-01 - 41
2014-10-25 - 48
2014-10-19 - 54
2014-10-18 - 55
2014-10-16 - 57
2014-10-15 - 58
2014-10-11 - 62
2014-10-04 - 69
2014-09-30 - 73
2014-09-27 - 76
2014-09-26 - 77
2014-09-21 - 82
2014-09-21 - 82
2014-09-14 - 89
2014-09-12 - 92
2014-09-08 - 95
2014-09-06 - 98
2014-09-01 - 102
2014-08-14 - 121
2014-08-13 - 122
2014-08-07 - 127
2014-08-07 - An update
2014-08-03 - 131
2014-07-31 - 134
2014-07-29 - 135
2014-07-28 - 136
2014-07-27 - 137
2014-07-26 - 138
2014-07-25 - 139 #2
2014-07-25 - 139
2014-07-24 - 141
2014-07-23 - 142
2014-07-22 - 144
2014-07-21 - 145
2014-07-18 - 148
2014-07-17 - 149 (adjusted)
2014-07-16 - an interlude
2014-07-15 - 144
2014-07-14 - 145
2014-07-11 - 148? I got a new phone, so I don't even know what the count is today.
2014-07-02 - 157
2014-07-01 - 158
2014-06-23 - 166 pt. 2
2014-06-23 - 166
2014-06-19 - 170
2014-05-23 - 197
2014-05-13 - 207
2014-05-10 - 210
2014-05-06 - 213
2014-05-03 - 217
2014-05-02 - 218
2014-04-28 - 222
2014-04-26 - 224
2014-04-22 - 228
2014-04-20 - 230
2014-03-09 - end in sight
2014-03-02 - Change
2014-02-25 - the mess you made
2014-02-13 - Exhausted is my middle name
2014-01-03 - Goddamn the desert
2013-12-31 - Done.
2013-12-26 - Show list
2013-12-25 - Shitty Christmas #27
2013-12-22 - I need this to be over
2013-12-22 - should be reading some sartre or something
2013-12-19 - one of the best weekends of my life
2013-12-07 - In which the author discovers she's a bitch
2013-12-05 - Finals next week and I'm cranky
2013-12-01 - have I written about therion here yet?
2013-11-29 - Labels
2013-11-28 - Emo musings on the holidays.
2013-10-05 - Grandpa
2013-09-28 - the fates
2013-09-27 - music
2013-09-26 - Returning to a time of teen angst, but in a good way
2013-09-21 - Sun Yat-sen
2013-09-18 - Backwards
2013-09-08 - When men fuck me over
2013-04-13 - Christ in a ciabatta roll
2013-04-12 - Growing up
2013-01-15 - It's been a while
2011-06-14 - Summer '11
2010-11-28 - <3
2010-11-05 - Because anthropology is an effortless degree, obviously. It's all relative.
2010-10-26 - Boys 2 + Music
2010-10-18 - Boys.
2010-09-18 - Lazy Saturday
2010-09-06 - short update
2010-08-26 - <3
2010-08-21 - Ouch
2010-08-14 - M
2010-08-07 - Day 1
2010-08-01 - ?#$@^#%@
2010-07-31 - Grudge
2010-07-29 - Perhaps I should make 8:45 my permanent bed-time. ... Yeah.
2010-07-27 - Best at Making Up Excuses
2010-07-19 - The most refreshing smell on earth
2010-07-10 - Meh.
2010-07-06 - sleep
2010-06-21 - Men.
2010-06-20 - Yeah.
2010-06-20 - IAMX
2010-06-16 - I don't like people, and that's okay.
2010-06-13 - Mix for mom
2010-06-12 - 'I am half sick of shadows'
2010-06-11 - Acute
2010-06-10 - Melodramatic complaining about society's boring sense of humor
2010-06-08 - A Sun That Never Sets
2010-06-07 - Dawn
2010-06-06 - Junip
2010-06-06 - Warpaint
2010-05-17 - Language
2010-05-11 - \"Runny thesis\"
2010-04-25 - Oasis
2010-04-16 - Romance
2010-04-04 - In which I question the importance of family
2010-03-20 - ------
2010-03-06 - Crisis
2010-03-03 - If I had a pint of ice cream it would be gone in twenty minutes.
2010-02-28 - I guess that's what UNESCO is for
2010-02-28 - Technical updates
2010-02-28 - About achmardi
2010-02-27 - 2010 Booklist
2010-02-20 - Exotic
2010-01-18 - For the record
2010-01-01 - To the rain.
2009-12-22 - A simple update
2009-12-10 - Sick days always depress me in one way or another.
2009-11-17 - Why I shouldn't date
2009-11-11 - Nerd hedonist
2009-10-31 - Stubborn
2009-10-27 - Nature withdrawl
2009-10-07 - It's almost winter
2009-09-20 - -
2009-09-13 - A nice break
2009-09-05 - Norway, perhaps
2009-07-27 - In which American Psycho is applied to my life
2009-07-24 - Sleep procrastination
2009-07-12 - Upside down
2009-07-02 - Not all of Norway is grim and frostbitten
2009-06-28 - I have to fangirl every now and then. At least it's not Twilight.
2009-06-23 - And I say I hate symbolism...
2009-06-21 - The joys of a chemical imbalance
2009-06-20 - Because I like writing the rules
2009-06-10 - Done.
2009-06-04 - What happens when you sleep half of each day.
2009-05-31 - Run
2009-05-31 - Submission
2009-05-25 - ... und ich will nach Deutschland gehen.
2009-05-23 - Lifeforce
2009-05-22 - Guilt
2009-05-22 - Haven't I written about this before?
2009-05-17 - Can't be lazy this summer
2009-05-12 - Incurable nerd.
2009-05-10 - The only entry-worthy part of my life right now.
2009-04-30 - Emotional.
2009-04-29 - Panic.
2009-04-22 - A nerdy metalhead's idea of a good time
2009-04-21 - I have no idea what I'm feeling right now
2009-04-20 - Time to go to work.
2009-04-16 - Thoughts to mind become my arch enemies
2009-04-14 - Like teardrops on the Stygian River
2009-04-14 - Challenging my own world to chaos
2009-04-13 - Instinct says Ew.
2009-04-12 - Entagled in your marionette strings
2009-04-12 - Carcasses and gothic-style flowy things
2009-04-10 - Puppy love
2009-04-09 - Keepin' it ambiguous
2009-04-07 - The grass is always greener
2009-03-25 - The serpent's wisdom
2009-03-20 - Why I should stop being such a hermit
2009-03-15 - One can hope, at least.
2009-03-13 - Still not over him.
2009-03-10 - Why customer service is not for me.
2009-03-07 - -
2009-02-02 - Why I never post anymore.
2009-01-14 - A short reminder for myself
2008-12-30 - Lack of entries
2008-12-15 - And it's probably because of him.
2008-12-10 - At least now the desire is there
2008-12-09 - And maybe one day I'll be queen
2008-12-04 - Enough that I want to cry
2008-12-03 - -
2008-11-29 - Why I appreciate beer, hockey, and fractal geometry.
2008-11-27 - Dirt roads and sticky summers
2008-11-25 - Yes.
2008-11-25 - The emotional equivalent of the fetal position.
2008-11-23 - The concept may be worth the step back, if it is one.
2008-11-20 - It never ends.
2008-11-17 - Stepping stone
2008-11-15 - Self-sabotage and my avoidant personality showing through.
2008-11-09 - Give me a break.
2008-11-08 - Photographing beauty
2008-11-08 - I don't need to justify anything.
2008-11-04 - Love.
2008-11-02 - Defense
2008-10-31 - Happy Samhain
2008-10-30 - Unstable.
2008-10-28 - Oof
2008-10-28 - Moon.
2008-10-28 - Challenge
2008-10-27 - Move, pretty baby, where the sky is so blue.
2008-10-26 - And I’ll tell you one thing that you should never do--never let a woman tell you she loves you.
2008-10-19 - Book excerpt
2008-10-15 - Drive
2008-10-12 - Snow
2008-10-11 - Bad day.
2008-10-10 - Maybe I'll get to go to Colorado after all.
2008-10-05 - In which we state the obvious.
2008-10-03 - I'm never an exception.
2008-09-27 - -
2008-09-22 - The future...
2008-09-19 - Always in search of a sunrise.
2008-09-15 - The internet sucks.
2008-09-10 - In which I wax pagan.
2008-09-07 - Human. Maybe.
2008-09-03 - Sept 3, Part One
2008-08-31 - Atonement
2008-08-30 - If. Key word here.
2008-08-29 - That must account for something.
2008-08-28 - The secret that should probably remain a secret.
2008-08-25 - Same Old Thing
2008-08-24 - Silent
2008-08-23 - Prequel to the Sequel
2008-08-22 - Live, Love, Be, Believe
2008-08-17 - It's so easy until you have to convince the subconscious.
2008-08-16 - Filling the shoes of a budding code-monkey
2008-08-15 - If a libertine ever does
2008-08-14 - You can, but you'll regret it.
2008-08-14 - How to lighten your skin
2008-08-14 - To sleep
2008-08-13 - When you return
2008-08-12 - Introduction to Journal #432