My life here is little other than submission. And I suppose that's really why I came here in the first place, to submit to the sadness and let my family run my life for a while. So I won't have to take responsibility for my actions and emotions, perhaps. I was rather tired of that, but isn't action and emotion just... a part of life? I'm still learning.
Maybe it's over-thinking things. I just know I'm not me, and I'm not happy.