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Crazy
Weekends are for mental breakdowns. I almost prefer the weekdays, because work gives me structure. Yesterday I hyperventilated in my car over laundry.

Today I feel like there's anxiety lurking under the surface of my skin, like a sea monster waiting to strike. Any little annoyance can propel it above the surface.

I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow to talk about all this. The anxiety, depression, ADHD, exhaustion, sleep issues. I've thought about quitting my job and running away somewhere. Flee the country. I don't care about much of anything right now, but know I will later and that I probably shouldn't ruin my relationships and career out of anger and sadness.

I feel like I'm the crazy one, now.

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2019-04-22 @ 10:21 a.m.