I go to Instagram, and instantly feel guilty about eating a pear. The trick to this is to lose weight as fast as possible while maintaining enough nutrition for my heart/body to heal. My veins are still shot and collapse from any tiny prodding.

But I'm making gains at cardiac rehab. I can stay on the treadmill for 20 minutes at a time now. They have me doing light weight training, but wish I could do more. A nerve still pulses in my right bicep from an arterial line that was placed there 6 months ago. Makes my fingers tingle a bit after I do curls.

I cancelled a date for tomorrow because this is just an exceptionally dumb time to be dating right now.

I've been in a very gothic country mood lately.

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